|Pumpkin for Ezra|
The best part of the week of Halloween was that we got our first snow day. That's right, in October. People may call it the effects of Hurricane Sandy or a nor'easter storm, but I call it Ezra's Halloween present to Mommy and Daddy. He knows how much we love Halloween and snow, so he wanted to combine the two of them together for us. :) At least, that's what I thought.
I still miss my sweet Ezra like crazy and each day brings a new set of sadness and challenges, but I am making it through one day at a time. I know that God has placed so many people in my life to help me through my grief stages and I am so grateful for them. It seems that no matter how I feel, there is someone there with a hug or just a listening ear. I feel so blessed to have so many wonderful friends and confidants. And what also helps me get through each day is knowing that my baby is watching me, cheering me on, and seeing how I handle various situations. I've always heard that you have to be careful what you do and say in front of children because they pay attention to everything. But the people who said this truly dont' understand, because I'M the one with the son who truly can see and hear what I'm doing and saying all the time. So I try to live my life so that he will be proud of me and so that he can say, "Look, Jesus, that's my mom. She makes me proud."
I miss you sweet Ezra, and love you like crazy. I can't wait to finish the Christmas decorations so that you can see all of them. Mommy loves you, Ezra.